Working though the doubt
Posted June 19, 2011on:
I shared my first blog post on my website today. The site doesn’t *officially* open until July 1, 2011, but you can check it out now 🙂 It is still a work in progress, so new content is being added often.
I struggle with inner demons on a daily basis. I am a self-proclaimed perfectionist and I am also my biggest critic. I am a great cheerleader for other people, but not for myself and I am really feeling the sting of my inner critic today.
I am getting into the thick of creating the upcoming E-couse (which still has no name, by the way) and I am stuck. I am trying to work out the details of what goes where and coordinate the art prompts with actual information. I have so many things that I feel should be *first* that it is hard to break them apart for other weeks. I also keep thinking I don’t “know enough” to fill all of the weeks with information.
I am struggling with self doubt BIG time right now and my inner voice is almost paralyzing. As a matter of fact, I am sitting here browsing Facebook and writing a blog post instead of working. I keep thinking I am in waaaaaaay over my head.
Who am *I* to TEACH these things??? I have struggled with my weight my entire life and even though I am now a personal trainer I STILL have to work HARD every day for every single pound. It doesn’t seem fair. Who would listen to me?!
Somewhere (so deep that I can barely hear it today) is a voice that says those are the very reasons I can help other women. I know that those women feel the exact same struggles and frustrations and can relate. In that same deep spot I also believe without a doubt that I *DO* know what I am talking about and that I *HAVE* changed my life, even though in this moment I feel like I am at square one again.
*takes a deep breath and listens *closely* to that knowledgable voice with-in*
AFFIRMATIONS for the day…
I am determined to prove my inner critic wrong.
I am confident in my knowledge and abilities.
I have changed my life and I know I can help other women do the same.
I will NEVER go back!